Power of Forgiveness…

heaven2What does it feel like to have the power to forgive?

Does it feel like joy dancing around in your heart?

Does it feel like waves soaring in the ocean breeze?

What does it feel like to have the power to forgive?

Because I surely don’t know what that is.

What does… what does it feel like to have the power to forgive?

To forgive thy mother whose harsh and cruel words

 sometimes slit your throat, and stopped you from breathing

But those same words were your motivation;

Yet she loved like no other… Unconditional love.

To forgive thy father who left you in this relentless world;

To be raised, when in fact he should have done it himself,

Yet he has taught you so many lessons… lessons on life and survival.

What does it feel like to forgive the people in the street?

After they have chased you and beat you

and transformed you into a heartless woman,

All because you don’t follow the status quo.

Your name means more than who you are as a person.

What does it feel like to forgive… forgive anyone and anything?

That deemed it necessary to take a piece of you…

With every debilitating stare, words from a violent tongue,

With every pulsating blow right to the head,

With every knife that pierced your little body…

They took a piece of you and diminished  you to nothing…

What does it feel like?

They know not what they do, they had no way of understanding.

It was all that they knew how to do and that’s survive.

So how do you forgive?

How do you open up your heart, when there is nothing left but a brick wall,

How do you love your child when there’s convictions of what true love really is,

I know my mother loves me. I know my father loves me.

But God bless the child who carries its own…

I’m at the place right now, where I have to carry my own.

God is staring me in my face,

Speaking ever so clearly… “I’m here, I’m here My child, I’m here.

Accept me. Believe me. Trust me. I’ve always carried you through.

I’ve carried you through the times when you thought no one was there.

When no one was listening, watching or staring you in the face.

I’ve carried you through the times when your heart was so broken,

And the pain was so intense, you thought that life wasn’t worthy of your presence.

I was there My child to pick up off the floor  when you were stomped down. So you see, I’ve always been there even when you had no knowledge of who I was.

The abuse. The turmoil. The confusion. The defeat. Yes! I’ve been through it all with you. I was the one that gave you the strength to carry you through.

Speaking on your behalf  when you had no knowledge of who I am.”

God is staring me in my face, telling me to forgive myself.

“You couldn’t change the environment that you were in, but I’m telling you now to change the mindset that you have! You know better now! You know me!

Oh how awesome is our God!!!

It is so powerful to be able to forgive.

 

I forgive. I forgive myself…

I forgive myself for allowing my Self to beat up on myself for so many years. For the choices that I’ve chosen to make, knowing that they were the choices that I shouldn’t have made. For allowing myself to be used and abused. For allowing myself to be played for a fool.

I forgive myself for being a victim in my world of convictions.

For not standing up and declaring my own victory. I forgive myself!

Oh God, I thank You!!! I thank You for allowing me to say that I forgive myself. I couldn’t have made it without You, without releasing the burdens of my soul. Thank You for being a merciful God!

I couldn’t go any further if I couldn’t forgive myself.

How could I seek the ultimate kingdom if I couldn’t love myself?

How could I love another if I couldn’t help myself?

I stand today to release Boo-bie.

Boo-bie was my savior,

Boo-bie can rest and its time for Na-Tasha to Rise!

The power of forgiveness…

The power of forgiveness puts joy in your heart!

The power of forgiveness puts peace in your mind!

The power of forgiveness puts serenity in your world!

OH WOW!!! This is the feeling of forgiveness.

I rejoice! I rejoice! I rejoice! because I forgive.

I love! I’ve conquered!!!

What a joy, To embrace the power of forgiveness!

 

Rise Up!! Soldier Girlz… Rise Up!

warriorRise Up!! Soldier Girlz… Rise Up!

Stand your position. It’s time to stand your ground!

You have been called to do a duty.

You have been called to war.

No more hiding behind the walls,

While the army is on the battlefield!

Rise up!! Soldier Girlz… Rise Up!

Stand your position. It’s time to stand your ground!

If you can’t stand up for what you believe in, then who do you stand for?

If you can’t run with the footmen,

Then the horses we will never endure.

YOU STAND FOR STRENGTH.

YOU STAND FOR TOGETHERNESS.

YOU STAND FOR UNITY.

YOU ARE ONE.

You are called to place on a shield of armor,

And into the battle you shall go!

You are built to endure hardships and pain;

You are built to cry, pray, wail and fast until the angels’ swarm.

Rise Up!! Soldier Girlz… Rise Up!

Stand your position. It’s time to stand your ground!

No more hiding behind the hedges waiting this battle out.

It’s time to go to war. Leave no soldier girlz behind.

No more wrestling with insecurities, you’re going to shoot those suckers out.

No more stealing your confidence and joy.

You’re going to fight for everything that the devil tried to steal from you.

The Lord says, “Trust in the Rock of Zion, and you shall never be disappointed.”

Hold on to His word. Hide it in your heart. Live the life of righteousness.

The devil will fall apart!

You were built for this battle! You were built for this war!

Just put on the armor of righteousness; And into the battle you go!!!

Rise Up!! Soldier Girlz… Rise Up!fc985bbda634fbc04190edddaf047ffa

The Power of Love

How many of you have been to a place where you feel your significant other is the best thing that ever happened to you? But OH!!! How they get on your nerves sometimes. It’s funny, but I believe many of us, feel that way about our significant others. . Some of our better halves are so helpful, or not at all. Some can be so romantic, or don’t have a clue what romance is. All we know is, their mine and I love them with all my heart. They may not be perfect for anyone else. As long as they’re perfect for me.

I say all of that, because my relationship with my husband, is quite awkward. Genuine love, but definitely an awkward type of love. You see, my husband is a laid back, calm, cool, and collective kind of guy… But He can burst like a firecracker, at the most inopportune moments! Unlike his wife, who is kindhearted, fun, and outgoing, but would bust your bubble whenever it needs to be busted, and won’t be ashamed about it. I have no filter for my mouth! Which makes us the perfect couple! We complement each other in every way. For this, I love him with all my heart, he is the only one that can keep me calm and make me laugh when I want to rip someone’s head off! Yet, he knows just what buttons to push to make me crazy. What a crazy thing called love!

Love makes you do the craziest things. It gives you butterflies in your stomach. It makes your gray skies turn blue. It gives you light at night which makes the moonlight shine very bright… Oh! That crazy thing called love makes you feel like you are in heaven, when you are probably living in hell. There is nothing in this world that can change your mind about love, once you are in love. Ladies and Gents, you know what I’m talking about. I love being in love! Life never seems so hard, when you have someone you love to share it with.

Just like yesterday, I think it was the worst day of my life. I was feeling like the world was over, and my life was about to be end because my husband and I were upset with each other. It seems like I couldn’t function. I couldn’t think straight. Why couldn’t he understand that I’m there for him always?! He’s probably thinking she doesn’t get my point. She’s trying to make me feel less of a man. Then he came to terms that I’m wasn’t there to hurt him or make him feel less of a man. He understood that I love him more than life itself because he continued to shower me with his love, even after our bad disagreement, we both came to terms that our union was a union orchestrated by God himself. He realized that life will never be the same without me in his world. Just as I realized that life would never be the same without him in my world. God placed us together for all the right reasons, so no man shall tear that apart. To have that kind of love is phenomenal! To have a love that is spiritually in tune is amazing!!. These are the powers of love!!!

Love is so powerful, you rejoice when the devil tries to attack you. Love is so powerful, no obstacle is too hard for you to handle. Love is so powerful, it seems as if you’re walking on water when there is nowhere else for you to go. Oh my! Love is so powerful!!!

The power of love

One day I was sitting at the beach. Most people who know me, know that the beach is my favorite place to be. Water is my inspiration. So, my husband loves to take me there any and every chance he gets. Usually when we get there, we stroll alongside the water and listen to the waves against the shore. I tell him what the water is saying to me at that moment, and he listens tentatively, grasping on to my every word. But on this particular day, I couldn’t walk for some reason, so we sat against the shoreline. My husband laid down and I leaned against his chest and I began to write what the water was saying to me at that time. Suddenly, this older lady came strolling alongside the shoreline. She looked at me and smiled. She continued to walk, and you can tell that she too was enjoying the voices that speak from the water. She turned back around, and in the sweetest, melodic voice I’ve ever heard, said “Young love, I love to see two people in Love. Is that your husband? He must have been tired. He is resting so peacefully.” I turned my head to look. Yes, he was sound asleep like a little baby. I chuckled, I was so engulfed in my writing, I never realized he went to sleep. I responded softly, “Yes ma’am, this is my husband. I didn’t realize he went to sleep. I guess I should get him home.” “No dear, Let him rest.” She said. “This soothing atmosphere put him to sleep. His lioness is at work. He is safe with you. That’s why I said, I love to see two people in love. You see, a man will never be at peace, if he has no one he can trust. A man will never settle and step up if he has no one to confide in that he trusts. A man will never give any relationship his all if he doesn’t have the right woman that will support him, guide him, lift him up when he is down, confide in and trust. You see, I walk up and down the streets often. I love to see what the world has to offer now, which don’t seem to be much, but every now and again I pass by two people who are truly in love and it makes my heart skip a beat. Love is powerful young lady. It is strong. It is wise. It is encouraging and above all, it comes solely from GOD. You could never truly understand love, if you don’t know GOD. We, as humans, need to get back to that place, where we know GOD; so we can know what love, generosity and grace really is.” I suddenly was engulfed by her every word. I guess this is the feeling that my husband feels when he listens to me alongside the shoreline. I wanted her to speak forever so I asked her kindly, “Would you like to take a load of those little legs and have a seat with me?” She smiled, at that moment I realized she was the prettiest, little black lady I’ve ever seen. She had such smooth brown skin, pretty teeth, lovely smile, and an angelic face. She stood no taller than 4’11. She said, “No dear, I can’t sit down. My old bones won’t make it up if I do and I have a little more walking to do. I just wanted to stop and commend you on a job well done. You seem like a loving young lady, a great mother, and a woman who strives for excellence. I know we aren’t perfect beings, but you seem to strive and thirst to live in righteousness.” At that time, I looked at her kind of funny because now she’s speaking as if she knows me. So I asked, “I’m sorry. But have we met before?” She said, “I’ve met you once, but I had to go and you never got to see me again. But I have been watching you my dear. I’ve watched you transform and become the loving woman that you are right now. I thought it was the right time, since I had the opportunity to see you again. You are on the right path. Faith has gotten you this far. Continue to walk by Faith. You are surrounded by a lot of angels! They are forever protecting you. Continue to be the rock for the family and for the community. This is who you are. Sometimes it seems hard, but GOD has your back. Your husband has your back, as you have his. I have to go now. Continue to remember that Love is of GOD. You two are a beautiful couple.” It seemed as if she was about to cry. I asked if everything was OK. She spoke softly, “I’m OK now. I’ve always been worried about Junior, but he has you now. You balance him out. You will keep each other encouraged. You both will keep the children encouraged so I’m OK now.” I looked surprised and asked “Ma’am, do you know my husband?” She smiled slyly, “I’ve known him all his life. Just do me a favor. I know you love those kids, so don’t ever stop being who you are with them. They will thank you later. GOD only knows they’re situation with their mother isn’t right. And Continue to watch over my Junior for me.” I turned to wake my husband up because I swear I never met this lady before. But when my husband awoke, she was gone. I never got to see where she went. It was the strangest thing. I’m babbling on to my husband on what just happened, what she said. What she called him. He looked at me as if I was crazy. How can a little old lady just disappear in thin air? He laughed at me. I was appalled that he thought I was bugging out. He decided it was time to take me home. I needed to rest. I was determined I wasn’t going home until I saw this lady again. So now I’m up and down the beach with my husband looking for this little lady. Just my luck, I didn’t find her! So I was disappointed that I couldn’t redeem myself from looking crazy. We were leaving the beach, and I looked up at the moonlight and just at that moment I saw this beautiful white dove, “Look Honey!!” I pointed and screamed with enthusiasm. “Look at the beautiful white dove! I’ve never seen a dove at night before,” He looked in the sky and smiled. He said, “I’ve never seen a white dove at night either, but it feels good to know that an angel is protecting us” I looked puzzled, so he continued to say, “A white dove is a symbol of an angel from heaven looking upon you. I hope that’s my mama looking on us. I really wish you could have spent some time with her. She would really like you.” And he laughed, “You are a piece of art that she would have loved to watch be created.” I cried. At that moment, I understood who that beautiful older lady was on the beach, and I began to cry more. “Honey, I think she has expressed all she needed to say to me today.” And we went home in perfect peace.

At that very moment, the alarm woke me up for work and I cried again. This time tears of joy. My husband who was already dressed for work, asked me what was wrong. I knew he was late so I just told him that I loved him and to go to work. Everything was OK. I just had a very emotional dream. He gave me a kiss and left to start his day. I couldn’t move to start my day so I prayed and I thanked God for His mercy and grace over our lives. Then I thanked my mother-in-law for being our guardian angel. It felt so good to know she approved of me. That was something that I always worried about, but GOD sent me the answer that I was seeking. Love is such a powerful thing that your guardian angel would come down to earth to deliver you a message of peace and prosperity.

These are the Power of Love…